9:45 PM

it wouldn't be the wisest thing that you will have done
wisest thing for the cca at the very least,
to make me quit.
why don't you just learn to shut up first,
when i am staring down at you straight in the eye
and when everyone else kept silent and was trying to look away almost immediately.
including the teacher.
why? you can't sense anything wrong?

people respect their senior because..
they are older and thus assumed, to have done and went through the hardships, and whatever else the younger ones are only starting to go through.
but if you do something to lose it.
then too bad.
and i don't care who you are, cca senior.
so please learn to respect my anger instead.
i don't like to use words of extremes.
i really don't.
but still,
i HATE people to shout.
even more when it's done to me.


on a lighter note.
sorry.
sorry for my erratic online habits this week.
cos i feel sleepy and tired for most of the days.
not really during school
but i just conk out later..
it has already gotten me in trouble before.
but i am glad that for the first time,
a stranger bothered to wake me up when i fell asleep in the train.
grateful to the couple of which the girlfriend pestered her boyfriend to wake me.
thanks. i guess.
and for these few days...
i wouldn't want to hurt you accidentally with my words.
so i choose not to be online okay?
sorry.




the nicest people can just be the ugliest.
sometimes.
and these "times",
whether they happen is always in your power.

something sacred.
something so beautiful.
something quiet to ease my mind.
when the pressure's takin' me over and over.

9:06 PM

i dont like roses.
just yesterday, i got pricked by roses
were they rose bushes?
but anyway i saw a stalk of rose among uhh.. bushes of thorns...
as i found out with my sense of touch.
not like i wanted to get the bloody rose in the first place.
it was just that something of mine kindof landed among them and i wanted it back.

actually it wasn't the case that i was blind and not be able to see the thorns and stuff.
but the thing is, something of mine landed on a ledge
that was one story high.
so i started to use my fingers to pull myself up and over the ledge
okay..
that and shoulder muscles i guess.
it was hundred times harder than rockclimbing or a stupid pull-up
and when i managed to heave my body over,
i found out that thorns from the lovely roses were pricking me.
in the end, i decided not to take the lost object that was nested among the roses.
the thorns were pain enough,
and i don't want to risk falling down :\

not a sucker for roses but..
there's something about it being hard to get that attracts me.
although it wasn't what i was actually looking for.
like how sometimes, you usually find things or people when you aren't looking for them or
looking for something else.
whether it is something that you might had wished for before, or not.
but when you meet with the thing or person or something, you are usually caught off-guard arent you?

pardon this nonsense.

school today was horrible.
actually it wasnt.
the lesson plan was.
the way we "conducted" it wasn't.
--for all we did was to get back our test papers.

wow. i'm surprised. i didn't fail any subjects
and i am also badly disappointed
got back 5 papers
all had crap results
take away the 4.0s
the 3.2's i had were sickeningly close to 3.6
and the 3.6 were so close to 4.0
i hate myself,
and was i like super high and drunken when i did the papers?
cos something seemed really weird and wrong.

for english paper, part of it was the comprehension.
okay i got 14/20 or something.
but when i counted my mistakes..
i counted 3 marks worth of mistake only.
one mark was that i missed a point, a true mistake.
then another one was because i used a word in the question for my answer and i had to minus the whole thing.
and the last one..
might not be a mistake cos i appealed and teacher's checking my ans now.
my answer wasn't in the answer list but someone else from some another class put a similar answer and got it right..while i got it wrong.
hope but doubt i will get the mark anyway, no offense -.-

and the 3 marks went to?
..missing out and not doing the last 2/3 questions
what the?
no i had enough time,
we were supposed to do a letter also in the same given time with the comprehension and i completed it with 10/15 mins to spare.
but i was blind, and i didnt see the giveaway questions and 3 marks flew away...

chinese..
wrong words did me in.
but i know people ( singular? ) who cheered me up with their retardness of how they did the paper.
thanks man HAHAHA x)

science, what happened?
like i lost 5/6 marks for the front part of physics cos my operations used for the calculations were completely opposite
and maths, the fraction was " /14 " all along and it suddenly became " /12" in my workings.
and when i should be studying history, i studied geog.
so that means i dint study for the eoys for history at all..
except the timespan of five mins from the time someone told me i studied wrongly and before the paper started.

havent received geog yet. not interested to know. hope i will do well/okay/not fail
did crap for the last paper
cos most people got 4.0 but i was like 1/2 marks away from it.
i was too tired to be sad.
but reality kicked in later on.
one good paper that i can be happy about please?
rather impossible, but it cant hurt to try to satisfy me ._.

i have to write some article for weird competition now,
which i had forgotten.
so i shall start now.
wonder how the concert for "the click five" and the "black eyed peas" are going now.
how i wish i could be there but..
should be a blast =x
stuck at home rushing rubbish now.
oh well, ups and downs.

to end of, it had been a wonderful day of chick flicks and smelly tissuepapers in the world of 1J today!

:D

I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and their skeletons
And I don't know why you'd even try
But I won't lie

10:13 PM

gah.
excuses and reasons aside..
i got owned in tennis.
they are good and i know it, don't i? but..
got butt kicked playing with them for the first time.
as in jasper, jethro and some other pro guy.
he's called andrew
ny dude, p6 this year.
dsa-ed with tennis into hci.
his strokes are awesome =x
he's even better than the guys i saw playing interhouse tennis for cdiv in RI.
nevermind. lets see how he does for nationals in 1/2 years time.


chalet :D
it was wacky.
and crazy.
haahaha
but i'm lazy to post.
so tooo bad.
no pictures from me as well.
forgotten all about taking them. o.0
not like anyone did..
but its allright, cos even if they did, its gonna be porno half-naked pics anyway >.>


the last few days for school were cool.
nice movie, interesting talk and stuff
had HILARIOUS perfomance(s) and retarded sushi-making today.
superb singer in zhiyou. pity youjun dint dance ._.
heh.
and some guy was playing "numb" on the keyboard.
but the whole thing started to screw up badly after 2/3 mins.
as for the sushi thing.
i think i would have a lot of people after me if they even knew half the truth of what i did to them.
1I is one.
cos i caused water to spill at their place.
and they had to stay back and clear the mess first.
not my fault really, ryan burst the water balloon.
hoho. better than i expected.
shhhhh ;D


one last thing.
gratz to the selected prefects.
heh. they arent too scary.
bullying the right spot and sweet talking..
and i should be able to survive for the next 3 years. haha



till next post then~

10:04 PM

okay quick update fast post.
eoys ended 2/3/4 days ago right?
they did by the way, for your information. haha
exams were sooo eventful yeah!
heh, i am so damn interested to know how i will do in history hahaa
what next.



ohyes my postexam activities for the previous 2 days sucked so much more than it could have been.
i LOVE you, rain -.-
you always appear when i want to go out and do my stuff..
only thing that irritated me so far grr.
so what did i do anyway..
cant bother. forget already i guess



as for today..
had to wake up early cos had to go for some shotgun thingy today
OH YES GUYS i was sharp, on the dot and missing that 1 sec that will make me late haha
ohhh u know i rock at being punctual uh uh :D
back to the point, it was so cool.

its funner, or at least less boring than air rifle
at least for me
shotgunning moving clay pigeons heh
have 1 clay pigeon as souvenir heh
and the instructor ( nah not really, more like someone who craps around for laughs :DD ) guy there was sooo funny
listen up dudes, old people are funny heh
he's called mr tang i think



then it was lunch and back home..
for a while..
then I am out again.
hmm saw stuff, walked around, bought stuff
quite okay.
found out "catsinecradle" performs at the bar just below ( and outside ) wisma atrium
wow, dint know that
and i like them a lot.
their lead ( only actually. lol ) singer is like sooo pro
i think that they are in "live the dream", the tv show, or something isit?
were they kicked out?
dono but they are good
oh soo soo good.
and the name is cool too
the "e" in catsine becomes a "de"
so its pronounced as
cat-sin( sin as in > greed lust envy etc )-de-cray-the



what else what else for today..?
forget it.
tomorrow's class chalet...
OH YES THIS MAKES ME BLOODY HIGH BABBYY
HAH 1J lets rock the place upside down, sidee to sidee and inside out
uh uh uh
nothing is so gonna make me down now.
hmm maybe not.
for one, u can tell me that the chalet is cancelled.

by the way, what to bring?
nevermind.
need me to get some snacks as well?
even though we weren't exactly assigned and stuff
but some snacks, you know, to keep us late in the night,
accompanying us through innocent movies and equally pure games and card games eh? hahaha
well, cant hurt to bring/buy.
and do u need me to lug my bigger, heavier, less portable camera. but takes like super clear pics... ( the ones photographers use lol )
or my smaller one, similar to those that most people use?

ahhh so many questions, and nil answers
ANYWAY, I SHALL CUT THE CRAP AND WE WILL HAVE A HELL OF A BLAST!
SHAN'T WE?!

Yeah here we go for the hundredth time,
Hand grenade pins in every line,
Throw 'em up and let something shine.
Going out of my fucking mind.

Filthy mouth, no excuse.
Find a new place to hang this noose.
String me up from atop these roofs.
Knot it tight so I won't get loose.

Truth is you can stop and stare,
Run myself out and no one cares.
Dug a trench out, laid down there
With a shovel up out to reach somewhere.

Yeah someone pour it in,
Make it a dirt dance floor again.
Say your prayers and stomp it out,
When they bring that chorus in.

YEAHH!

7:23 PM

to heaven with these exams!



...i shall go shower now.











1 day down. four more to go.
2 papers down. four more to go.

four's the way,
to the great escape.

9:41 PM

YES!
tomorrow's the start of eoy..
HOW EXCITING, i cant wait.
not to mention,
i have this good feeling that i would fail all my subjects
as in eng, cl, maths, sci , geog, hist and etc.
bleah


i want to sleep now, or sometime early.
but i have to go through some stuff first.
found out that studying on the bed for these few days is much much more productive then the 200+ days ( in this year that ) i spent studying so far in front of the com.
HAH!

and then maybe,
sew a button on my pants or something.
like, during these 2/3 days
all the buttons came loose for all my pants when i was unbuttoning them
and when i made them come loose, they also broke into half

or maybe i will just get another safety pin
but its damn irritating
esp when you need to use the toilet,
you have to take the trouble to go inside the cubicle instead and take the pin out, pee or whatever and then place it back again.
having miss clumsy always by my side means getting my hand pricked too -.-



oh, thanks yuanchi for the notes today
and happy birthday daniel :D
ahh sorry i cant play with you after the eoys
cos i used up my membership already
gah =x


all the best people!

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know ya do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

9:25 PM

today


science >
had some kind of chemistry test/quiz. was..okay?
actually it was super easy.
the whole paper.
i think, to me anyway.
expect at least 5-10 in the class to get full marks and above ( that is getting the bonus question right as well )
thanks to whoever who set the paper for the free marks anyway...
...mr chong? i don't really pay attention in class but..
did he say something about him setting the paper and it being mind-boggling hard? o.O


chinese >
revision for eoys. had tingxie for some "ciyu".
from my results.. i was quite okay.
for it was somewhat decided on the day itself ( today ) and in other words, only meant for those who did their own revision over the weekends.
but i didn't. and i did reasonably well. so thats good.


maths >
finally i did something for math. that is the ws he gave us before the weekends.
was also busy copying the "right presentation skills" as he went through.
like who gets " -1 mark for poor presentation" at the bottom of their paper -.-
who bothers about presentation skills when you get the right answer.
fine. i guess everybody bothers, including me if i'm being picky -.-
which i am in the mood to be now..so yeah.
copying presentation skills from the teacher doesnt mean paying attention btw, it only means paying attention to whether there are answers for you to copy.


eng/lit >
did our other oral thingy.
some kind of talkshow/interview on animal farm thingy*.
we named it " miss swan talking cock"
i kind of forgot about having to prepare for it.. so my speech was pretty much impromptu.
i am called "go-go" the goose ._. i cant think of a nice name for a goose, for goodness sake!
..and you know the goosey dance i mentioned in the speech.
it was supposed to be like the chicky dance yeah?
as in "chicky here chicky there chicky everywhere"
just that i'm a goose so i changed it to..
"goosey here goosey there etc. "
i suck at acting/talking so it didn't come out so well..
a good thing for someone would seem like a bigger fool if things were to go as planned.


history >
the period was used up for Promethium day.
hmmm..the new head prefect looks okay, should be okay. though he and the new deputy head boy do seem rather strict to me. nvm


art(/music) >
crapped about things with others. drew colored some things ( for art ). always the slack period





the most interesting thing that happened in class was during recess hahaha
lets see..

[ student 1 ] was teaching [ student 2 ] to do the rubix cube
[ student 2 ] wasnt bothering much about what [ student 1 ] was teaching him, still he said
" arghh. so difficult!! nevermind, i shall vent my frustration on changrui's bottle "

takes out a packet of macdonald's salt and pours into changrui's bottle.
[ student 2 ] mutters " we shall test the solubility of NaCl ( ie salt ) in water "
*shakes bottle up and down*
*wenjun looks on*
[ student 2 ] noticed that wenjun was looking envious.
so he says " here wenjun, have fun! "
*hands me a packet of macdonald's salt*


how sweet. i didnt do it but yet another packet of salt was found in changrui's bottle later on. and the reaction in the next lesson later on was OMG damningly hilarious HAAHAHHAHAHA.






an esp rare post considering that its eoys soon and stuff. but yeah its to you children out there [:
HAPPY CHILDREN"S DAY
stay innocent and young,
you know, its really amazing how the world of children compared to the world of adults is totally different.
the other day i saw this male Eurasian kid playing with an Eurasian female ( a small kid as well )
what the boy was playing/doing to the girl would be molesting and just stopping short of raping in adult terms.
i mean.. like putting err..your head under the dress and playing peek-a-boo? tickling the girl's whole body?
lol

but there was no ill intent, the 2 kids were laughing, the adults ( public ) around were smiling.
they were playing in front of me and i was stuck between choosing to wince or to smile.




its the mugging period now.
i should get some work done for today.
*yawns*
at least i know that no matter what, i would have songs accompanying me thrue the night.
i appreciate that fact in itself.
nicely put, its hard to find company nowadays and i cant be bothered anymore.
..
well..


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